Lily is just 4 weeks old today but I feel like I have had this sweet litle girl in my arms (and heart) forever.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Yesterday these two sisters really got into it. There was hitting, kicking and even some naughty words yelled. Elle's line was, "you're the stupidest, Gwen" and Gwen yelled her signature angry line, "you're wude, Elle". It was all over a silly wind-up toy fish. We only have one and they both wanted it. To them, their worlds were ending. I pried them apart (literally) and put them both in time-out. After they mellowed out a bit we had "the talk". You know, the follow-up talk after you get in trouble. I remember this dreaded talk growing up. I knew it well. I talked to them about how lucky they were to have eachother. That they were being mean to their best friend...the friend they would have forever. We talked about taking turns and then it happened, I pulled the most dreaded mom-maneuver EVER. Their eyes were wandering while I was giving my speech and I said, "look at me". Oh, how I hated that when I was getting in trouble! Wow. Who am I? I may have given birth 3 times but when that line came out of my mouth, I officially became a mom. I am still laughing about it. I must admit however, it did seem to work. They hugged and l even got them laughing. As I was getting the girls to bed later last night I heard Elle say to Gwen, "I love being your sister" and Gwen repeated that back to her in her mumbled 2 year old speech. I melted.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
We love our Lily. I think we all agree that she is a 'keeper', for sure. And even though I have a headache from lack of sleep lately, I still just adore her. She is awake a lot more and I love to look at her pretty blue eyes. All 3 of my girls have their dad's eyes. I love that. I am still figuring out the ins-and-outs of being a mom of 3. Jon and I started laughing last night as we FINALLY got everyone tucked into their beds. It was craziness. We made the rounds turning off the hall lights and closing their doors once they were asleep and the house was just so peaceful. The only sounds were from Lily...she still sleeps in our room. She makes what sounds like to me, puppy dog noises while she sleeps. It really is cute. This is a lot of work, this whole 'mom business' but boy is it worth it.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Elle. I sure love this girl. She is so sweet and so sensitive. A true 'mama's girl'. She begged and begged to be at Lily's birth. I thought long and hard about it and talked with her about exactly what was going to happen. I decided to let her join us. After I had my epidural and was not in anymore pain I had a friend bring her to the hospital. She was sooo excited. She came just in time and stayed through the entire birth. She told me that since she was the first person Lily saw (true) that Lily thinks she is her mom. She was standing on a chair next to the doctor holding Jon's hand during the delivery. I remember her with a big smile on her face saying, "mama, I see Lily"! The nurse was also very sweet with Elle and let her help give Lily her first bath. Needless to say, Elle is in LOVE with Lily. I mean, true love. I think it will be a day she will never forget and one that will bond her to Lily forever.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Gwen. This little girl makes me happy every single day. I have been feeling bad the last few days because I feel like every other sentence out of my mouth is, "no, gwen! be soft"! She loves her new little sister and wants to carry her and feed her and make sure her binky is firmly in her mouth. Needless to say she is (innocently) a little rough. This morning I heard, "catch, lily" and saw a ball going straight for Lily's face in her basinette. Wow. Gwen has also aged a few years to me in the last week. I used to think of her as my baby and now I realize just how big she is getting. I love these pictures of her. I came downstairs and found her just like this...standing on a chair washing her apple in the sink. I keep apples in the bottom drawer of our fridge and Gwen loves to help herself multiple times a day. Each night as I rock her before I put her down to bed she says, "apple tree" which means she wants me to sing her that song. She sings along with me and we have hand motions and I just melt over how cute she is. I love you Gwen and I love that I get to be your mama.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
This morning I was still in my pajamas and had baby Lily in the baby bjorn on my chest. Elle was wanting me to watch her amazing ballet moves and Gwen was insistant on trying to fashion my hair in a ponytail without any help (ouch). As I sat on the couch with all of this going on around me, I thought back to an article I had read the night before, 'What Makes Me Feel Beautiful' by Kathryn Harrison. It resonated so much with me. If I took even a quick glance in the mirror, I would have realized that I was not looking my most glamorous but I did think, "yes, I do feel beautiful".
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Saturday, August 8, 2009
I love this little girl. But even as I type that, the word 'love' just does not do justice to how I feel inside. My heart feels like it has doubled in size. Life already is unimaginable without her. She is calm and sweet. I have had it both ways with babies which makes me even more grateful now to have a mellow one. As a newborn, Elle cried (and I did too) 21 hours a day for 4 months straight...for real. I did survive (and I loved her just as much) but this is much more enjoyable.
Last night Gwen was at Grandma's house and Jon took Elle to the Angels game. The house was quiet and I just held my Lily. I know 'real life' is going to have to start here soon with school and laundry and 3 little ones that need me constantly. I will have to get out of my sweatsuits and think about how my jeans still don't fit. But not yet. Not today. I am basking in the love I have for this new little one straight from heaven...nothing sweeter.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
This morning was a good morning. Jon took most of the feedings last night. He is so sweet with Lily and I am so grateful for his help. After he headed out for work, I had all three girls in bed with me. The fog is starting to lift and I am feeling more and more like, "I can do this". Elle and Gwen love Lily more than anything. She is a sweet, sweet baby. Happy. I love watching the love that Elle and Gwen already have for her. It is tangible. The last photo is of Elle singing "The Itsy Bitsy Spider" to Lily. She is doing the part, "out came the sun". Oh, so cute.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Is there anything cuter than a newborn in a white onesie? Not in my book. Lily and I snuggled together all day today on my bed. Dreamy.
Yesterday was a long day. I had Lily and Elle and Gwen all home together. I was tired and Elle and Gwen naturally wanted to play. We did waterballoons and played in the hose in the backyard. Jon watched Lily upstairs while he worked. It was a fun day but by the end of the night I just was overwhelmed and tired. Post-pregnancy hormones had gotten the best of me. My friend Stacey called and found me in tears on the phone. This morning she showed up at my house and took both of my girls with her and her kids to the beach. All Day. I was able to rest today and spend some seriously needed quality time with miss Lily. Today I feel not only blessed to have a sweet new baby in my home but to have such amazing friends.
While arriving to the hospital I found out that one of my best friends, Christy, was in room 190 delivering her baby. Where did they put me...in room 189. Too fun! Christy went into labor about 8 days early so this was a big surprise. Having the same doctor made it even funnier because she was going back and forth between each of our rooms while we were in labor. Our daughters are the same ages and are best friends so when they all showed up to see their newest siblings, they were playing in the halls together. After having our babies, Christy and I went back and forth from eachothers' rooms for visits. It really was so fun. Baby Will and Baby Lily will not only share a birthday but will always have a fun story to share as well.