I love this little girl. But even as I type that, the word 'love' just does not do justice to how I feel inside. My heart feels like it has doubled in size. Life already is unimaginable without her. She is calm and sweet. I have had it both ways with babies which makes me even more grateful now to have a mellow one. As a newborn, Elle cried (and I did too) 21 hours a day for 4 months straight...for real. I did survive (and I loved her just as much) but this is much more enjoyable.
Last night Gwen was at Grandma's house and Jon took Elle to the Angels game. The house was quiet and I just held my Lily. I know 'real life' is going to have to start here soon with school and laundry and 3 little ones that need me constantly. I will have to get out of my sweatsuits and think about how my jeans still don't fit. But not yet. Not today. I am basking in the love I have for this new little one straight from heaven...nothing sweeter.