Tuesday, January 19, 2010

...but better

A few months back, Elle learned how to ride a bike. I know...a little late but that was our fault for not teaching her sooner. Our house is on a hill so it was hard to learn in our yard. Jon took her to a flat parking lot and she picked it up in just about 20 minutes. She was more than ready. I love that I have a picture of her in her UGG boots too. She got those boots for Christmas and I don't think she has taken them off since. She even tries to wear them with her pajamas at night. She feels really grown-up in them. Lately I have felt that we are in a constant silent struggle. Elle wanting to grow-up and me continually trying to keep her my little girl.

I was lying in bed with her the other night as she was dozing off to sleep. We were nose to nose and she was pinching my neck. She has done that since she was an infant. When she was little she would just say, "mama neck". So random and to me, so cute. So there we were lying in the dark and she said, "mama, you're like a best friend or sister... but better". With that one little sentence my eyes immediately welled up. She can be so trying at times and I think how can I be a better mom. I am learning that you have to mother each child so differently. I try my very best each day and on lots of days I just hope that I am giving my girls what they need. I know I am not the world's best mom but I do think that I am the best mom for my girls. I think we were meant for each other so that we can learn from one another. And I hope that I will always be like a best friend or sister to them...but better.