Halloween Pirates

The girls decided they wanted to be Pirates this year for Halloween.  We had gone into a Halloween store and they begged for the pirate costume.  I told them they could be pirates but that we could put together a much cuter pirate costume than the one in the plastic packaging.  The clip on hoop earings were my favorite part. 

I think we succeeded!

Arrr!

We were trying to remember what the girls were each year for Halloween.  I linked all of the Halloween photos that I had on this blog.  It was so much fun to look back at old photos.  They're growing up waaaaaay too fast.

Halloween 2011 Elle
Halloween 2011 Gwen
Halloween 2011 Lily
Halloween 2010 Elle and Gwen
Halloween 2010 Lily
Halloween 2009 Elle
Halloween 2009 Gwen
Halloween 2009 Lily
Halloween 2008 Elle
Halloween 2008 Gwen

Love Me

My sweet little Lily was sitting on this little chair just watching me while I was on the computer this morning.  She's so cute with her messy bed-hair and nightie. My camera was on the desk next to me and I just snapped these little candids of her.  Gosh, I adore her.  She's my angel.  If she's sad and feels I'm not giving her the attention she needs because I'm dealing with the other girls she cries and says, "mama. love ME".

It's her way of saying,"Mom. stop what you're doing, I need some love and attention".  How could I not respond to that?  It stops me in my tracks every time. I feel torn with 3 little ones constantly needing me and all I can do is pray that I'm giving each of them what they need.
Lily - when you read this someday...I hope you'll know that you have ALWAYS been sooo loved. 

I love YOU.  

xoxo mama

First Day, Hooray!

My 3 girls on their first day of school.  

Preschool for Lily, Kindergarten for Gwen and 3rd Grade for Elle.  

All 3 of them are loving their teachers and are happy.  That's all you really want as a mom....your kids to be happy.  

Elle wanted me to walk her to class and would have let me sit right at her desk with her for the day if her teacher allowed it.  She's always been like that.  A total mama's girl.  

Gwen on the other hand let me come the first day for a parent meeting but on the second day when most of the moms walked their kids into the classroom, Gwen said, "mom.  you can just pull up and drop me off.  I'm good".  I told her I wanted to walk in with her and she again gave me a sympathetic look and said, "really mama, just drop me off."  She was beyond ready for this day and is so excited to FINALLY be in Kindergarten. 

My Lily-pie was super excited too.  I think her favorite part is having her own lunchbox.  She feels so grown-up.  She was happy when I left her and she said, "mama come back?"  I said, "yes, mama will always come back."  She went straight for the legos and waved good-bye.  then when I came to pick her up she was standing right next to her teacher.  I called her name and she started to look around for me.  The minute we made eye contact she started to cry and ran to me.  It was my first time leaving her in a school setting and I think she was just a little worried.  The minute she got in my arms she said, "mama came back!"  

White and Bright

For YEARS I have wanted to do wood paneling sprayed white behind my sofa in our family room.  I have more formal wainscoting in other parts of our home and in here I want to do a more casual look with wide-plank horizontal paneling floor to ceiling.  That's not in our budget right now but in my mind that's what is "supposed" to be behind our sofa.  

Well, on a whim a few weeks back I decided that if I couldn't have my white wood paneling that didn't have to stop us from lightening it up a bit in there. I had extra white paint from other projects and I asked (begged) Jon to paint it for me.  I know Jonnie really loves me because he HATES painting but at 6pm that night he moved all of our furniture and went to town.  It was a rash decision on my part but unlike the result of most decisions like that, I am loving it.  It's just a softer prettier look to me. Jon's happy too because it has silenced me for a bit about the wood paneling.  A win-win!!

Pretty

I walked in the front door this afternoon and the light coming in this front window was so pretty.  These roses opened up today and they are so pretty and smell so good.  

Lily had fallen asleep in the car but I couldn't resist dusting off my camera and getting just one picture before carrying her up the stairs and my "to-do list" taking over.  

I carefully put her in her crib thinking she was completely asleep and as I was closing her door she whispered, "love you, mama."

It doesn't get better than that.

Love

"Making the decision to have a child - It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."

                                                                                                                                   - Elizabeth Stone

Dear Lily-pie,

I love you, my sweet little girl.  Happy 3rd Birthday.

xo  mama

Happy 8th Birthday, Elle!

My Elle turned 8 years old.  Hard to believe.  Turning 8 is a big deal in our family because that means you get to be baptized. Elle's baptism is next Saturday. She is beyond excited and ready.  I took her out tonight, just the 2 of us, to take some pictures to remember this special birthday. The sunlight on the hill was so beautiful.  We had so much fun together.  I absolutely adore this little girl.  I often tell her that she is "my dream/wish that came to life".  That always puts a smile on her face (and it's true!) It is so amazing to watch her grow-up right before my eyes.  The picture with her walking up the dirt path makes me tear up.  I just look at my sweet girl and that picture just makes me think of all of the LIFE she has ahead of her.  As her mom, I want only the best and sweetest things in life for her.  She is such a beautiful person inside and out.  I am one lucky mama to get to call this one, mine.  

I love you, Ellers.  Happy Birthday.

Powder Room

I switched up our downstairs powder room a bit.  I found the venetian glass mirror almost a year ago at a store that was going out of business. I've always thought venetian glass is so pretty and feminine.  The little rug was one I found at Lowe's of all places.  My very favorite item is the little antique table. I love antiques and love that they're usually one of a kind pieces.  That space has been empty for years because I have never been able to find anything I like to put there.  I saw this little table for almost nothing at one of my favorite antique/thrift stores.  It's perfect and I love all of the carvings on it.  My dream would be to wallpaper this little powder room but that will have to wait.  For now, it's just perfect.

Lily-pie

Gosh, I love her.

My lily is the sweetest little person on this earth.  I am convinced of this fact.  

When I tell her I love her she always replies, "thank you".  I don't know why but it makes me laugh every time.  

She thinks her name is "pie-pie"...just ask her. 

Her very favorite movie is Strawberry Shortcake.  It is on repeat in our car.  

When I rock her to sleep at night she always says, "baby song".  That means she wants me to sing her the lullaby, 'hush little baby...'  The minute I finish she says, "baby song" and I sing it again.  It's the cutest.

Her favorite food is Ketchup. Just ketchup. Carrots and ketchup, lettuce and ketchup, eggs and ketchup.  She'll eat anything with ketchup. 

She insists on dressing herself these days and still dislikes wearing a bow in her hair but LOVES lipgloss.  

I get 3 hours every day with just the two of us.  She's my buddy and it's the best. 

I love this Lily of mine.  

Monkey See Monkey Do

 Gwen is one awesome life coach.  She passes on only the most important life skills to her sister.  

It's coming...

Summertime is coming!  We kicked off Memorial day weekend and went camping with friends.  It was a blast.  Here's Gwen cruising the campground like she owns the place. I have more pictures but am off to Lily's swimming lessons.  

This picture makes me want to be a kid again.  

Not a care in the world...

Motherhood

I know this is a novel here but on Mother's Day, I kept thinking about how far I've come in the last (almost) 8 years as a mom.  I'm just at the very beginning of this journey but still can't believe how much I've learned so far. When I was little, I dreamed of someday being a mom.  I know I've written this before but it's true.  That was what I would dream about.  I didn't get pregnant with my sweet Ellers until I was 29.  So by the time I had her, I was really ready and really excited.  And let me just say, it was waaaaaaaay harder than I ever anticipated.  Elle was an extremely difficult baby.  For months I wondered why in the world people talked about how "wonderful" the infant stage was.  I was losing my mind.  She screamed for 5 months solid, day and night.  I am not exaggerating.  Right up until having her I was teaching school full time and also going to school at night to finish my Masters Degree.  I went straight from that craziness into being home all day, alone with a baby.  Now combine that with postpartum depression which I didn't even realize I had until after the fact, and you get the picture.  When Jon would come home from work I would also be crying and I would just hand her to him.  All I can remember him saying was, "I thought you were going to like this".  Time passed and Elle got thru that phase and ended up being a very easy baby from 6 months on.  I wasn't supplying enough milk for her which was what the doctors finally thought this issue was but that's not the point here.  It was what Jon said to me that one night that I have never forgotten - "I thought you were going to like this....".  There are lots of parts of motherhood that just aren't fun. What is amazing though about this job is that even on my worst days when it's so hard and I don't "like" it, I still have a sense of the magnitude of what I am doing. I have been entrusted with these little girls. That responsibility weighs heavy on me but at the same time gives me purpose and meaning even beyond the most seemingly menial parts of my day. There is a sense of fulfillment in being a mom for me and in trying my very best to be a good mother to my girls.  

I now have 3 little girls that call me mama and it is still so humbling.  At this stage in their lives I am their "everything" quite literally.  It's exhausting for sure, but oh so rewarding.  This picture above is one that Gwen took using my phone recently of me dancing with Lily one morning in our jammies.  My Lily-pie was having a rough moment for whatever reason and I just put some music on and held her tight.  She calmed right down.  I have done this with all of my girls.  It's these moments that are almost never captured that to me, define motherhood.  I want so desperately for my girls to know how deeply I love them.  I want them to know that even though I'm not perfect, and even though I have lots of days that I fall short, I really am trying my very best.  They're so little right now and I can't believe that a lot of what I do with them they will never remember.  

I want them to remember how when we're driving and if no one's around I will drive "crazy' just to make them laugh even though it makes me CRAZY carsick.  I want them to remember how I put my hand back to each of them as I drive and squeeze it really tightly.  I've told them that each squeeze means, "I love you".  Now all I do is put my hand back and give them a squeeze and they say, "I love you too mama".  It's so cute.  I want Elle to remember that I love lying in her bed every single night before she goes to sleep and scratching her back. Actually, I don't like the scratching part but I do it because that's when she opens up the most to me about things in her life and her feelings.  I want Gwen to know that I think it's so cute how she likes to show me how tall she is getting and that she can "get a glass from the cupboard without tippy toes" and that I love it when she crawls on to me like a little cat to watch her cartoons.  I want Lily to know that I love her kisses.  She will walk right up to me and say, "double".  I bend down and she gives me double (2) kisses right smack on my lips.  I melt every time.  I love how when I brush the snarls out of their hair they hug me tight around my waist so that it won't hurt as bad.  I hope they know how much I love how their faces light up every single day when they see me in the pick-up line for school or walking into the preschool.  I love that when they lay just 2 inches away from me, I always say, "you're too far away" and make them scoot closer.  They always roll their eyes but do it anyway.  I love that they think I'm an AMAZING cook even though I'm not.  I want them to know that when they help me cook and clean it takes 5x's as long and usually ends up worse than when we started, but I do it because I love to see how sweet their little proud faces are when we're done.  I love the little notes Elle leaves me around the house and the pictures Gwen draws of me in preschool.  I love that whenever they do something they think is great, they can't wait to show me and I always try my best to make it a big deal.  I love sneaking into their beds at night to give them kisses while they sleep.  I  love all of these little things and I feel panicked as to how fast they are growing up.  As a mother, I've come a long way from those days when Elle was an infant and I can honestly say that I do "like this" thing called motherhood.  Actually, I love it and that's the truth.  More than anything, I just hope that my girls know that their mom loves them.  I am constantly telling them but what I hope most, is that my actions are letting them FEEL how much those words that I whisper in their ears, are true.  I Really, really loved, love and will continue to love them....Forever.

Sisters

"A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost."

                                                         marion c. garretty

Want to Play Babies?

Every morning after we get Elle off to school, Gwen looks at Lily and says, "hey, you want to play babies?"  Lily ALWAYS says yes and the two run off. 

They literally do this 7 days a week.  On the weekend Elle happily joins the "mommy party".  They do not mess around.  Aprons are a must.  We have a few sets and they love them.  The girls are WORKING very hard out there.  Cooking food, making bottles, getting fussy babies to sleep.  It goes on for hours.  They have little rocking chairs set out, cribs, highchairs, toddler beds for the older dolls.  It's quite the production.  I think it is the sweetest thing ever.  Gwen's preschool doesn't start until 11:30 so my little lily still has a friend to play with all morning.  

Those little dolls of theirs are the luckiest babies in the world to have such cute mommies.

McGee Girls

I love these little McGee Girls. I have very few pictures of all of us together. Actually, I have very few pictures of myself at all with my family. That's what happens when you're the designated photographer in the family. I just don't want these girls to grow up and then wish that I had pictures with them. After church this past Sunday I begged everyone to go to the backyard for "just ONE" picture with me. The first thing the girls usually do the minute we walk in is start taking their dresses and shoes off to change into "cozy clothes". There's always a trail of clothes from our garage door to their bedrooms. They weren't too pleased with this change in routine...I made everyone head straight to the backyard for this one square foot of shade for the picture. You see what it's like living with me? I'm glad we did. Gosh I love them.

Easter Dinner

Easter dinner was at our home this year. I love having everyone here. Definitely one of my very favorite holidays. My photography skills are lacking here. The darn lens I had made it impossible for me to get everyone in the same shot and I'm sad that the picture I took of my 3 adorable nieces was blurry. They're so cute and my girls ADORE them! It was a happy day.

Easter Dresses

Before hopping into the car for church, I made the girls pose in front of our front door in their new Easter dresses. I can't even count the number of pictures I have taken of the girls in front of this door over the years. Looking at this picture, I am struck by how grown-up they are all looking. I think of myself with a little baby and little girls but there's not a baby in sight in this picture! Where is the time going? I love these 3 girls more than I ever imagined I could love anything or anyone. It really is unreal the amount of love you have for your kids. The second picture is so sweet to me. Although it looks like Elle is pointing to a stucco wall, there is a little tree just outside of the frame where they spotted a little bird. It was so cute how Elle wanted to make sure her sisters could see that little bird before we headed out. I want to freeze them just like this.

Easter Morning

The girls were so adorable when they woke us up to go downstairs on Easter morning. They were in their matching Easter jammies and I couldn't get over their cuteness. Gwen admitted that she peaked over the railing before she came in to wake us up. Lily has been referring to the Easter bunny as "Hop Hop". So she kept screaming, "Hop Hop, Hop Hop" as she ran down the stairs to her basket. The carrots and water they left for the Easter Bunny were gone. He really had been at our house! The baskets were super simple and the girls LOVED them. The big hit was each girl got her own roll of patterned duct tape. Very exciting. Elle left a note by her basket before going to bed with instructions that she did NOT want any gum (she thinks it's gross). So Gwen and Lily did get gum and Elle did not. phew! Foil wrapped See's chocolate, a few bouncy balls, some card games and sticker books and the girls were thrilled. We had the egg hunt in our backyard. It is so darn cute watching them. I got them the little green felt baskets a few years back for our egg hunt and now it's a tradition. They love those little things. It was such a simple and fun morning. Happy Easter!

Happy Day

We had such a nice day today. From start to finish it was so great.

The Easter Bunny made a visit to our home last night. We woke up to LOTS of chocolate and an Easter Egg hunt. Church was nice and Elle even gave a talk in Primary. Following church we had the whole family here for Easter Dinner. I did take lots of pictures but am just too tired to even look at them right now -- except for this sweet little one I saw of Gwenners. Here she is in her new Easter Dress this afternoon. I was walking up to see why the front door was open and there she was watering the flowers. The sweetest.